hello,if anybody is really reading this, and for some reason I hope to god not because, for another strange reason i am about to say something that i may soon regret. ever since school began, i have been reunited with my friends, they are drooling over my stuff, saying that i have improved and such crao is not olerated, so i alway swiched the topic.

But that is not the problem here. for those who are still reading, and i know that there is no one there reading this, i must say that my mind has been clouded with a crush. I DONT HAVE TIME FOR A CRUSH, and even if i did, it wouldn't matter because the dude doesn't even notice that i am there at all. Its sorta painful to realise, but i am prefectly immune to the violent that beats my heart everythime he sits behind me on the bus.

I try to ignore him too, because i don't want him to know that i like him, i know that it would be too painful to bear, and really, whats the point? i mean i won't see him after highschool, so i will keep these feelings forever bottled up in the depths of my dark and violent heart.

The dude has been my acquintance of 4 years now. In 6th grade i kicked him in the shin becuase he was being shy and didn't respond to my greeting. Maybe he thinks i am too violent, really i don't know. i don't know if i wanna find out either.

thank you for not reading this, it really means a lot to me...........